Sunday, November 29, 2009

Happy Belated Thanksgiving

This past week was amazing. Reed and I are so thankful that we have such an amazing family! We truly are blessed by the four days we had off for thanksgiving.

As far as what we did for Thanksgiving, we spent all day at Reed's parent's house :) It was a sweet time of helping to cook, sitting around the table visiting and, of course, watching football together. What's funny is, I didn't even know the Aggies were playing on Thursday...I guess I naturally assumed it would be on Friday like always...so yah, good thing everyone else was on top of things!

Friday we spent the day at Reed's parent's house again and just hung out with his family. We went to go see the Blindside and I LOVED IT! It was a beautiful story and whether or not all of the movie was "true", it was still inspirational. After the movie, Reed and I decided to cook for his family so that his mom could take the day off of cooking (since she had been cooking all day on thanksgiving day). Overall, I think they liked it :)

Now we're sitting here, getting ready for the week and I can't help but really related to Ecclesiastes 1...that every thing has it's time. Our pastor spoke this morning about all the "pleasures under the sun". This phrase is a favorite in the book of Ecclesiastes and it means all the earthly pleasures. I was humbled this morning when our pastor spoke of the praise and thanksgiving we can have of earthly things, that they are truly a gift from God, not something to say is wrong. Sometimes we as christians say if it isn't "all about God" its wrong. It's not wrong to enjoy vegging out with family and enjoying doing nothing together. What would be wrong is if we chose to make that our ultimate treasure...our ultimate treasure, that brings us everlasting joy, is Jesus. I also enjoyed the sermon this morning because he talked about the fact that the pleasures under the sun are good and we can enjoy them, but that we ought to know that they are fleeting and truly momentary. I feel that reality this Sunday evening. I mean, MAN, did I enjoy my thanksgiving week! But it's gone, it's fleeting, just as is every pleasure we have under the sun. That's not a depressing thing, because it reminds me that I shouldn't hold on too tightly to those things under the sun, but it's something I have to remind myself of often.

Okay, well I'm off to bed!

Friday, November 13, 2009

You are stronger

This is a two part post...neither part has to do with the other.

Part 1:

I just had to share that there are three musicians that no matter what kind of day I'm having, if they come on the radio, I'm instantly cranking the volume and jamming out. Also, I will never get tired of songs by these three artists...like ever. Those three artists (so far, I am sure there are more, but these are the ones I've picked up on so far) are Journey, U2 and Beyonce.

Yesterday when I left work at around 6:45, the first song that came on after I turned on the radio was "Any way you want it" by Journey :)


Part 2:

I'm really trying to evaluate my love for Jesus. I know that a lot of the times I want to say that my actions are driven by love for Him, but I've been really convicted about the motive behind my hearts yearnings.

For instance, sometimes I get really down because I haven't had much time in the Word or in prayer or just spending quiet time with the Lord. But I'm realizing that sometimes these feelings are really driven by guilt more than love. I want to be love. I want to not do things so that I can feel "okay" about how "good" I'm doing. Sadly, I'm realizing how shallow my motives are for spending time with the Lord. This makes me kind of realize why I'm not spending as much time with the Lord. Maybe if I really understood and grasped His love for me, I might have a response of love as well.

It's been really humbling seeing my messy and selfish heart that doesn't seek the Lord how I should.

But I've been encouraged a lot today, especially by this song by Hillsong...it's just encouraging me that Jesus is my Savior, not myself, so although I feel messy on the inside right now, that there is continual hope in Jesus.

Stronger
There is love that came for us
Humbled to a sinner's cross
you broke my shame and sinfuless
you rose again victorious

Faithfulness none can deny through the storm
and through the fire
there is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me

You are stronger you are stronger
Sin is broken you have saved me
it is written Christ is risen
Jesus you are Lord of all

No beginning and no end
You're my hope and my defence
you came to seek and save the lost
you paid it all upon the cross

So let your name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher be lifted higher

Sunday, November 8, 2009

My Surprise

On Thursday this week, Reed told me that I couldn't schedule an eye appointment Saturday afternoon because he had a little surprise for me Saturday afternoon. I had NO idea we were doing anything other than Habitat on Saturday and naturally my curiosity became a burning fire inside of me

But Reed wouldn't budge, all he would tell me was that it didn't cost any money whatsoever and that I would MUCH rather be doing this than going to an eye appointment. These "clues" were so vague, that I decided just to give up on asking, because I had no clue what we would be doing that didn't cost any money...so I decided to suck it up and wait.

Now on Friday night, we were planning on having dinner with Reed's parents because we hadn't seen them in forever. I left work at around 6:30 and got home around 7:30. We headed down the road to his parents house and finally, when we got there, Reed told me that he thought someone else might be there cause a car was in the back driveway. I was curious and when we walked in the front door, all I could see was some girl with blond hair in the kitchen...I was confused cause we didn't know anyone from Dallas with blond hair.

THEN...out of nowhere, my MOM pops out from behind the door. And the blond girl, was my SISTER! That was the surprise! My mom and sister surprised me and came to visit :)

It was the best surprise EVER :) I have had a REALLY hard past couple of weeks just from feeling tired all the time to feeling like I wasn't doing so well at work. And even though I didn't know it, having them spend a day and a half with us was EXACTLY what I needed. Just to have my family, who is always loving and encouraging, there for me.

We had dinner that evening and I was so giddy the whole time...part of me wanted to cry because I was so happy/touched but I held it in ;). The next morning, Reed and I went to our Habitat build (which was so much better than I though it would be. I was glad to be there, but was nervous I wouldn't know how to do everything they were telling us to do, but I did, YAY) and after the build we came home and hung out with my mom and sister all afternoon. We went to bed bath and beyond for a little bit, but mostly we just talked about life and my mom gave me recipes and we just were together :)

Later that night, we went to my CPA exam dinner. This had been planned for a while because Reed's parents wanted to take me out for passing the exam first time. We went to this REALLY REALLY nice Mexican City cuisine restaurant named Javier's. It was so neat that my mom and sister got to join us for my CPA exam celebration dinner. We all got dressed up and had a great time! We came back and played wii (I passed out around 9:30 sadly, cause I was a little tired from the work week and habitat), but overall the whole day was amazing.

This morning, we took my mom and sister to church and then to Einstein Bagels before they headed out. It was just a great weekend...and so needed. I guess I just needed a break with my family :)
And I was so blessed by it :)

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Wow it's been a while....

I'm sorry that I have not been very faithful in updating on my life. I truly LOVE blogs, I love that I can follow up with people easily and it helps me feel connected with people that may not live around us anymore....that's why I have loved writing too. I really do enjoy updating people on our lives, but lately I have been such a bum!

SO really quickly, I want to reach out and say that I'm alive and well!

Work has taken me by storm and I've found it much harder to get motivated and post about my life. Danielle actually called me the other day and was asking me what is going on, what's happening in life and as sad as it was, right now, work is happening. The weekends are definitely work free (except maybe a couple of hours on Sunday, not too bad), but for the most part, I spend a BIG chunk of my time working (right now it is around 50 hours a week).

How do my days look?

I wake up anywhere from 6:00-6:30, depending on how tired my body is hehe. I usually get to work around 8:00-8:30AM and leave between 6:00-7:30PM, depending on the amount of work I have gotten done throughout the day and whether or not I work while I eat lunch etc.

I get home and usually am brain dead. Sometimes I handle this well, but lately I feel like I have not been a very fun person to be around during this time. One thing I will say, God had used work to reveal a lot of the ugly and negative sides of me. I tend to come home exhausted and instead of bringing joy into the house, I bring my selfish self in, feeling like I deserve to just act grumpy and tired. I'm glad God is faithful and showing me this so that I can work on loving Reed better in the evenings when I get home.

Reed usually starts dinner before I get home and I help him fininsh. We eat, usually watch a little baseball (or any other sport) and then we just vegg until 9:30 when I start getting ready for bed again.

Now, I know this sounds like the monotonous work life that everyone dreads and I guess it is a little, I definitely have a pretty rigid routine throughout the week days...BUT I've been growing a lot as a person through this adjustment to the working life.

Here is just a short list of the areas I've either grown or at least seen areas that I need to work on:
1. Embracing quiet times with the Lord and taking time out of the day to enjoy Him and His Word (still learning this one)
2. Time management
3. How to handle stress (DEFINITELY still learning)
4. How to go to bed and stop thinking about work (I have to force myself to stop thinking about it so that I can really BE at home)
5. Finding purpose at work (like if my life is completely for the Lord, how do I not get caught up in the wordly things but seek to honor and serve God at work?)
6. Learning to make the most of my time at home with Reed...especially when it comes to appreciating him and what he does (he makes me coffee in the mornings, makes me a lunch everyday and gets dinner started for me every evening :) :) )

SO that is my life, it's been bumpy as I've been trying to learn to adjust and sometimes I've felt so overwhelmed that I've failed to keep in touch with the outside world. I promise I'm working on changing that :)

Until next time ;)